Cocolatte Innocence

Wearing: Cocolatte Pleated Lace Dress thanks to Cocolatte; Steve Madden boots thanks to Steve Madden, Vintage Bridal Crown; Sportgirl's 'Spring Fling' lipstick

I've had a pretty crazy day today - lots of emotional ups and downs and fights and bickering and apologies and realizations and smokes in between. I almost cracked it at about 4pm this afternoon but I had a friend come over to just sit with me and give me a quick hug. That's all I needed. A quick reassuring hug.

Last night I had a heart-wrenching talk and it was decided that I take a break from my partner so I can collect my thoughts. If he is reading this, I just want to tell you I love you and that I am sorry but this is for the better and I hope in time that we will be OK.

It isn't easy for me too, so for now I concentrate on my blogging and try to remind myself that even without that love to fill my world, I will still have my work, friends and family to fill that gap.

I wish so much to go back to the Natalie that was innocent and full of wonder and hope so I can just feel the pure happiness I felt many years ago as a kid (pokemon, Barbie, climbing fruit trees and rollerblading were my world); but I am also happy to turn out the way I am - strong, wise, clear-headed and spirited. I learn from my lessons and pick the hard road rather then the easy cowardly road. I don't let people walk over me and at the same time I appreciate in full circle what people do for me out of the kindness in their hearts.

Another life chapter for me is going to be written for me, but all in all I hope to keep my passion for blogging alive, whether it's post-editing, styling, photography or writing. I am particularly proud of this set of photos because it shows a lighter, gentler and sweeter side of me. It is rarely shown and only to a handful of people in my life, but it comes out at full force and with open arms.